I met him for the first time in person a little over a week ago, and i have to say i fell in love fast with him...probably too fast. I need to take a step back and look at things in the bigger picture. I've been pretty depressed over it, because he's not sure how he feels about me...and in truth, maybe i am too fast in feeling these feelings to him. I don't even really know him all that well.
Last night i told him exactly how i feel. In some ways i think it was good, and in others i think i revealed too much too fast, but i had to get it off my chest...i'd been holding it in for so long. And it doesn't look like i've scared him, because he thanked me for being honest with him. He's also been going through some major drama with his roommates, involving some underage sexual matters...which now have blown into legal matters. In any case, yeah, he's been feeling torn as well, because both of the people involved are friends of his. There are actually more than 3 people involved, including the minor. But any way, i am not going to talk about that.
So yeah, things right now are very stressful for him, and also for me. I am going to see him next month again, so we will see where that night takes us, and so on. I hope it all works out. I also have another friend coming to visit me next month as well...his name's Dave, but he likes to go by Mickey Harley...i just call him Harley. He really wants me too, but he is also coming out to see what developes between he and i. I've known him for almost 2 years now, online and over the phone, and this will be our first meeting in person. I hope all works out.
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